Blessings

I feel really grateful for all that I have to date.

Granted I have to submit this shitty thesis and that I have a job with shitty prospects, but I still have things to be thankful for.

I am thankful for the family I have. They do annoy me badly to no end, but in times of need, I know I can always count on my family to be there for me. I am really lucky to have a grandma that takes such good care of me since my infant years, always fussing about my food preferences and my health. She is the only mother figure I have in my life, always so self sacrificing for the family. Even though I lose my temper at her sometimes, she never holds it against me. This makes me more guilty than ever. To my dad who is the authoritative figure in my life and yet so supportive in his own ways, you mean more to me than you imagine. These few years has been rough on my dad who has been doing his utmost best to see nerd and me through our private education. I guess this has taken a toll on him too, making him less patient and more peculiar than before. In all his struggles, he still finds it in himself to forgive me for my failures (which result in direct monetary losses) just because he understands my sadness and my stress and is not willing to see me in a constant state of despair. To my brother, even when he is overseas still manages to remind me of his presence and give me invaluable advice and a listening ear, you have just made my incomplete family more complete than any complete family has been. I remember all the times we fought, played and protected each other as kids. So much has passed and changed and our bond grows stronger, my brother and my childhood friend. My family is not perfect, but in our own ways, we have made it more perfect than any other complete family would be to me.

Another person to be greatly thankful for is my awesome boyfriend whom I have only known  for slightly over a year. He is nothing but a saint to me. Always managing to deal with my temper and attitude and being there for me when I am greatly stressed. Its no easy feat I know. Even my family shrinks back when I am in rage. But this courageous one is brave enough to be there knowing my bark is fiercer than my bite. I am so indebted to you in many ways, having stuck by me for so long even though we are not in any way blood related or contracted. This means so much to me as I know you will stay with me through thick and thin and I can always count on you. I hope I can one day be the same as you. I will catch up soon (hopefully) so you can also count on me.

My friends too have been of immense support in many periods of my life. Without them, the low periods of my life would have been so much harder to cross. Though not specifically mentioned, I thank all that has passed through even though we may no longer be in contact. You may not remember what we had, but these memories I hold dear to me. It saddens me that we can't go back to what we used to have, but sometimes just having those memories are better than none. To all those I am still in contact with, I hope we can be friends till we stop counting coz the years are too long. We would have tea when we are old and reminisce  the past blurring the lines between the present and the past.

I may not have many things, no wealth, no perfect job, no fame, no contacts, no perfect grades, but with all that I have, I am contented. To the higher being up there, thank you for all that I was given. Now I just need some assistance to help me with this thesis. I really do not want to let my dad down.