Uncertainty

I feel like I have reached some cross road of my life.

Feeling pretty stressed up as the final year paper is not progressing and I am clueless on how to perform SPSS. I feel like I cant complete this thesis. It is almost driving me to the point of desperation and helplessness. I guess the worst part is I have noone to ask for help. I wished I never took the last year.

Work has been tough too. Le boss has been pretty hard on our division and the backoffice support is crumbling. I am not sure what to expect anymore due to the high turnover rate here. I have just grown to work with this team and it is already disintegrating. I feel but great pity as we could have accomplished so much more together. It was a working pattern that we were all comfortable with. Despite all the snapping, we all knew we had the backs of one another, there was no politics in that small space. Just feel so sad that this is to change very soon. Would miss the days we slogged together.

When facing the two together, it feels as though I have come to a dead end. Stress is so immense that my appetite is waning. I really hope to pass the month of May in one piece so I can pick up the pieces in June.

To higher beings up there, please grant me the strength and perseverance to cross this hurdle. Let me find the assistance I need in this crucial period. I also hope that the rest of the team will have better paths in their future careers. May they find what they seek.

Back to figuring out how to do this thesis:(